Your emotional abuse ends today or I'm gone

Get it together or get out of my life! Transcript-ish. Edits in normal case:

 

HI! I'M JEROME, CREATOR LTASEX.COM.

WELCOME TO LET'S TALK ABOUT SEX THE SHOW WHERE WE TALK ABOUT SEX AND TODAY, I'M PUTTING MY EMOTIONALLY ABUSIVE ASSHOLE OF A PARTNER ON BLAST!

YEP, EVEN PEOPLE LIKE ME END UP IN ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIPS I’ll tell you how it al started… THE YEAR IS 2013. I MEET BUBBY AKA ROBERT in Feb. HE'S YOUNG, WHITE, SUBMISSIVE, SWEET, TROUBLED, REASONABLY ATTRACTIVE.

SURE, LIKE MOST WHITES HE'S A LIL' CLASSIST & RACIST & UTTERLY DELUDED ABOUT THE WAYS OF THE WORLD. Sure, WHEN I BRING IT UP, HE GET'S ALL JERRY SPRINGER BUT WE TALK IT OUT, HE LEARNS AND IT'S FINE. IT'S FINE!!!

BUT THEN, 8 months in, HE LOSES HIS MEMORY DUE TO A SEIZURE. YES, REALLY. WE RESTART. HE RELEARNS.

THE MEMORY LOSS TURNED OUT TO BE EASILY RECOVERABLE... BUT BODERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER, ALCOHOLISM, ETC. CAUSED SOME ISSUES.

After lots of therapy, we found out IT WAS HIS CHOICE, TO FORGET; HE GOT IT BACK WHEN HE HAD A REASON TO REMEMBER.

By this time, I'D SPENT A YEAR BEING HIS CAREGIVER. IT NEVER OCCURED TO ME TO LEAVE. HE NEEDED MY SUPPORT AND I LOVE HIM. HE PUT ME THROUGH A LOT OF EXTRA STRESS THOUGH.

HE CAN BE RAGEFUL, EGOTISTICAL, & CRUEL. HE BREAKS STUFF, USUALLY HIS OWN BUT IT'S OUR MONEY. HE HATES CRITIQUES YET REQUIRES DIRECTION. He’s also DECEITFUL AND AN UNDERCOVER ALCOHOLIC, LIKE MOST WASPS.

I THOUGHT I WAS DOING THE RIGHT THING. AFTER 2 YEARS, THOUGH, I'VE HAD ENOUGH.

IT WAS HIS CHOICE TO FORGET and IT'S HIS CHOICE TO ACT LIKE THIS I'VE GOT RECEIPTS:

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HE LIKES BEING CRUEL. HE'S AN EXPERT AT CUTTING ME DOWN... WELL TRYING AT LEAST; HE'S NOT THAT SHARP OR QUICK, BUT HE DOES HIS BEST LIKE TAYLOR SWIFT. MENTAL ILLNESS CAN'T ACCOUNT FOR EVERY THING HE DOES. I DOUBTED MYSELF BUT NOW I'M CALLING BULLSHIT

HE THINKS I'M AS DUMB AS THE PEOPLE HE GREW UP AROUND but I’m so fucking not. THIS BEHAVIOR IS SOME WHITE BOY DEFENSIVE ASS BULLSHIT.

I GAVE HIM A PASS BECAUSE IDK "LOVE" OR WHATEVER. Plus, THE GENERAL ACCEPTANCE OF WHITE MEDIOCRACY ... AND A FEAR OF LONELINESS. IT'S HARD FOR A MIDWESTERN GAY.

I WANTED HIM TO APPRECIATE ME AND HE HASN'T SHOWN IT. SO... HE HAS 7 MOTHERF*CKING DAYS TO SHOW ME WHY I SHOULD KEEP HIS SORRY ASS. HE CAN TRY TO WIGGLE OUT BUT BY THE END HE BETTER BE SETTLED.

I feel like I should mention that I’m angry, BUT THIS IS ABOUT MORE THAN JUST ANGER. I'M ALSO FEELING BETRAYED, BORED, AND HUNGRY.  

IN THE BEGINNING OF OUR RELATIONSHIP I TOLD HIM ABOUT A SIMILAR SITUATION I BEEN IN I WAS ROOMMATES WITH A GUY WHO IS A LOT LIKE BUBBY IN MANY WAYS. YES I WANTED TO BANG HIM BUT DIDN'T. IN THAT SITUATION THE MOFO WOULDN'T CLEAN BECAUSE IDK WHITE & LAZY, MALE & SPOILED, FEARFUL & SHELTERED, ETC. ALL THE SAME REASONS (BOTH UNDERSTANDABLE AND NOT) BUBBY ACTS LIKE HE DOES.

I GOT ANGRY FOR THE SAME REASONS, TOO: HE'S AN ADULT, WHINING LIKE A BABY. HANDLE YOUR SH*T AND STFU.

I’ll admit, I LIKED BEING CRUEL TO HIM IN RETURN FOR HIS BEHAVIOR. I REGRET IT doing it, not my enjoyment. STILL, LOOKING BACK, THAT DUDE WAS A LAZY LIAR BUT ONLY AFTER THIS EXPERIENCE WITH BUBBY DO I FEEL OK SAYING THAT.

IN BOTH SITUATIONS, THE ONE WHO COVERS WEAKNESS WITH EGO, THEN COWERS IN FEAR IS THE INSTIGATOR. THEY ACT OUT BUT DON'T EXPECT A RESPONSE.

IF THAT DUDE KEPT HIS PROMISES, THERE WOULD'VE BEEN NO PROBLEMS! IF BUBBY COULD TAKE A CRITIQUE WITHOUT CALLING ME A NIGGER, WE WOULDN'T HAVE A PROBLEM.

STILL, in the beginning, I WAS FILLED WITH REGRET AND BUBBY KNEW THIS. BUBBY KNEW that I never want to make a mistake like that again.

HE TOOK ADVANTAGE. HE TOOK ADVANTAGE FOR 2 YEARS BECAUSE HE'S: LAZY, WHITE, INCONSIDERATE, SELF- CENTERED, AND MORE!

HE'S NOT COMMITED TO BEING BETTER THAN WHERE HE COMES FROM. HE WANTS TO BE BASIC, FLAT-ASSED, PALE, ASHY, AND MEDIOCRE FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE AND STILL BE PRAISED FOR BEING GREAT.

WELL, YOU'RE NOT SHOWING ANYTHING WORTH PRAISING AND YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE ON TOP OF IT ALL. FOR SHAME.

UNTIL YOU DO RIGHT BY ME... fuck you. AND THE CHANGE BETTER BE PERMANENT OR THAT F*CK YOU WILL. I WILL ACCEPT NOTHING LESS THAN I DESERVE FROM A PARTNER.

I'VE HAD IT, OFFICIALLY. YEAH I LOVE HIM BUT WHAT'S LOVE GOT TO DO WITH IT? HE'S GOT ALL THE TOOLS HE NEEDS. 7 DAYS IS ENOUGH FOR HIM TO GET OVER THE HUMP AND MOVE ON WITH ME. IF HE DOESN'T I'M MOVING ON WITHOUT HIM.

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THANKS FOR WATCHING,

HOPE THIS HELPS SOMEONE. IF NOTHING ELSE, HOPEFULLY IT'LL HELP BUBBY GET HIS SH*T TOGETHER. I HOPE I WAS CLEAR THAT I'M NOT F*CKING WITH HIM.

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ALSO I KNOW I'M BEING JOYFUL ABOUT THIS SOMEWHAT BUT I'M NOT A PERSON WHO LABORS

OVER A DECISION ONCE I KNOW IT NEEDS TO BE MADE. HE'S BECOME A DRAIN ON MY LIFE. I TOLD HIM THAT HE HAD UNTIL I'M DONE TO ACT A FOOL. HE'S PUSHED TO THE EDGE, AND I'M ABOUT TO LEAP OVER. I GAVE IT AND HIM A FAIR CHANCE HE DIDN'T TAKE IT AND IN 7 DAYS HE MIGHT NOT HAVE THE CHANCE. SO, IT'S UP TO HIM.

THANKS FOR YOUR TIME, KEEP IT SEXY

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